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i saw further seems forever tonight. it was alot of fun. I ended up mostly hanging out with Chris P. who is fantastic! like, i was really happy to find out that he's been feeling that the scene needs to turn back to God too. As many people as there are who feel this, it should happen. but i have faith that it will. anyway.... we hung out and that was awesome. diana and lindsay were down for the weekend which rocked because i love diana to pieces, and i got to know lindsay better too, and she is super! I also got to talk to Ciera tonight, and she's just an awesome kid. she was all, "Jesus is MY valentine!" haha! that's so great! :) yay! well i am, as the subject implies, sassed out. so goodnight everyone, and i'll see you tomorrow at the Do5 show. God bless!!!
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well, today i finally made a friend at CSTM. Renee. she's really really neat. and like, she's one of the Godliest Catholics i've ever met. she's also free of secular music, which is awesome, and we just had this really neat discussion about God. it's cool because i really miss having all these girlfriends around all the time. i really took it for granted at UD. but now i really cherish it. i miss having friends around all the time. in ft. worth it's really hard because i don't have all my friends here. and the ones who USED to be my friends are now people that really could bring me down. and i don't want that. so i'm really really happy that i found a friend at school.
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| 02:25am 13/02/2003 |
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tonight i realized something. I may not be doing this for a church, and I may not be in an organized sort of situation, but as i have been called to be a youth minister, i am already a youth minister. as my friend shafer frantically imed me about her mom's boyfriend trying to break in, and God began to give me scripture to give to her in comfort, i just felt this empowerment, like, this is what i'm supposed to be doing. now i know she's only like, a year and half younger than me, but still, she is youth. God has blessed me with her, and with Abel, and with luis, and other kids who are truly seeking His face and just need some direction and help in their walk. I've been called to a high school ministry, and God has already provided it for me. This just blows me away with how good He is! And He's providing for me everything and everyone i need for an effective youth ministry. praise the Lord!
but now i have to go finish a paper about Him!!!
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| 09:25am 11/02/2003 |
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so... it's been 2 weeks since i last updated.. let's have a go at what's been going on...
school. i'm actually not there right now *though i should be* because i stayed up half the night making a "which CG are you" quiz on quizilla. yeah, stupid, i know. but so much fun! rar. i have this massive paper on genesis due on thursday. yikes.
other stuff. ok, that show on friday was pretty cool. like, i was so glad that we got to pray...twice! we should start doing that more often. actually, what i think would be amazing would be if we assigned certain people to certain bands, to continuously pray for them during their set. be it from the side of the stage or from the band room or whatever. The fire will fall if we have constant prayer going on at shows. hear you me. also i joined the Chave team as an official writer, so look for my article on scene reform and an interview with the blamed coming up soon. that should be fun.
ummm... school is getting better, like, i don't know, the kids are kinda warming up to me. i just feel like they may think i'm snobby because i don't talk, when really i'm just shy. renee seems really sweet. and like, she did earn cool points with a vintage collared sweater. then there's john campbell (oh no! another one!) who i just wanna smack in the face. it's not that i don't like him. he's really kinda funny. but like, he's just one of those people who's just a real twit. he uses the phrase "per se" in the most ridiculous context. and he'd be really cute if you gave him some converse and he let his hair down (he doesn't necessarily slick it back, but it's wet and he just brushes it back... i think he's got pretty long bangs, actually). and he argued against this guy's paper in class yesterday saying it was too opinionated, when it was supposed to be about OUR feelings on sept. 11. geez. ok, well im off. i need to go do some stuff. like find some black nail polish. i'm tired of my toes being pink. God bless!!!
your sister in Christ,
Allison
You are Allison, the loud, sassy greek who wants to
rock! You may not get to hang out with everyone
all the time, but you still hold your own, in
all your opinionated glory.
Which CG are you?
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| 08:49am 29/01/2003 |
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so last night was luis's birthday party at 412. it was a good time. i don't know, something about last night was really encouraging. for one thing, i got a chance to talk to ashley, and she's really really super nice! like, i always feel intimidated by her (which is odd, since we're the same age and she's smaller than me) but like, i should know by now that the Christians i hang out with are not gonna dislike me, because we're brothers and sisters in Christ. and so it was awesome to talk to ashley and also to jamie. another great thing, praise the Lord! i talked to Diana a little bit and we're gonna pray about getting an apartment in denton together! which would be so stinkin rad! i could definately see a totally artsy apartment coming out of this! ;) and i mean, what a blessing it would be to have an awesome woman of God like Diana as a roommate! anyway, God will work that out. and ya know? last night i just felt really really comfortable talking about God. just sharing my faith with a girl i just met. and other stuff like that. but every show i go to, the burden become stronger. i want to see people saved, a scene revived, bands falling on their faces before the Lord because He is moving so strongly in the building. but all i can do right now is pray and preach the Word. well, i'll be getting off to class now. so God bless and Godspeed!
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| 08:59am 28/01/2003 |
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i started at the college of st. thomas more yesterday. wow. do i ever stick out! i mean, everyone there is so conservative! and no one has any sense of style at all. haha. as if i do. but anyway, i just don't feel like i fit in in the least there. i'm just that "weird girl". and what's more, i'm new, so people are afraid of me or something. it's so crazy. and on tuesdays we have to dress up as "civilized people" : coat and tie for the men, dresses for the ladies. this is ridiculous. praise the Lord i only have one class on tuesday. oh well, maybe if i hang around some of the restaurants during lunch hours, i'll meet some nice TCU kids. speaking of which, i need to get in touch with theresa. yes. definately. so i'm off to class now. God bless and have a great day. see you all at luis's birthday party tonight!
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| 12:33pm 22/01/2003 |
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| 12:51pm 11/01/2003 |
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i have had a very uneventful Christmas holiday. besides the fact that i am now on acedemic probation for a very embarassing gpa, not much happened. praise God though, because my parents have been very lenient about me going to DBC throught the break. i only pray that they can be the same way this summer. i have been seeking the Lord more though. the scene isn't mattering as much to me as it used to. and not the people neccessarily...i love my friends dearly. they are my brothers and sisters. but just like, i've seen these bands over and over again. so it's like, now i'm paying to hang out with my friends. seriously, i've only been to 2 shows this whole break where bands that i actually wanted to see played -- ethan durelle, and oh-jay and the brantis orangutangs. do not get me wrong. i love infirmity. i love them to death. each and every one of them. their lyrics are so uplifting. but i see them all the time, so it's those bands that i don't frequently see that i actually was excited about seeing. Infirmity and beandip went on tour. i was bored those 2 weeks. which is sad, because i don't hang out with either band nearly as often as i'd like to. but geography challenges friendships all too often. josh and i have hung out a few times, which is always AWESOME. and i'm praying for him right now because he got kicked out of his house. i'm just so glad though that we've become such close friends after we dated. that's the best kind. but because we live only 15 min. away from eachother when i'm at school makes things so easy. hesty is trying to make friends again. he said at the last infirmity show before tour, while onstage, in front of like, 75 people, that i meant alot to him and have taught him alot this past year. i'm kind of wary of this. i mean, this gets all those thoughts back up again of "oh my gosh, is there a chance we could get back together?" but then i realize how much i've grown in God these 6 months since we broke up, and how josh and i have different priorities now. so who knows what God's got planned for this. i just want to be his friend though, i have since we broke up. i'm glad he's warming up to that idea again. i've made alot of new good guy friends. Cody, James, Matt, Dallas, Luis (who is rapidly becoming one of my best friends)... i'm glad i've gotten closer to all of them. they're all really great. but anyway. i'm going to go. much cleaning to do, and little time to do it in. God bless you and have a great day.
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| 10:43am 17/12/2002 |
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God is working on me in full effect here. let's take a look at what all has happened.
the scene is not a scene. it is my ministry. we are in big trouble here. we need to stop the smoking, throw out the secular music, and just obey God. i mean, seriously. that is what the "scene" is lacking. we are not being obedient to God. i have stopped caring about music. bah. i mean, yeah. music is great. and i like noise. haha. but there's a difference between a Christian band, and a Godly band. Half-handed cloud = Godly band. Further seems forever (in the moon is down days) = Christian band. yeah, they're Christians, but they're not singing about God at all.
also, God has recently thrown some amazing people into my life. one in particular is Cody, who has been a HUGE encouragement to me these past couple of weeks. and please do not mistake what i'm saying for something like, i have a crush on him or whatever. because that's not it at all. but this weekend God worked through him to help me out with some things that were really troubling me. and even though he makes fun of my juliana theory button. he's still great. but you know what, screw the juliana theory button. i mean, that's meaningless. seriously. i'm tossing it out! the only band buttons i'll keep are the ones for friends bands. and my flame-resistant button. but like, i'm finding myself wanting to serve the church more and go to shows less. why can't my parents understand this! haha. most kids, their parents can't understand why they listen to nine inch nails and wear all black. my parents can't understand why i want to go serve the church all the time. that's hilarious. oh well, God's gonna work on that.
lastly, i've been reading Jeremiah, and i'm seeing the "scene" in it. we're falling apart because of our disobedience. cast all your idols out, and come back to God. please.
your sister in Christ,
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| 09:22am 17/11/2002 |
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so i went to see pedro the lion last night. it was really a great show. scientific was excellent. so was seldom...but we don't listen to that "devil rock". moving on... so pedro goes to play, josh comes up to me and says "hey, we need to talk after the show"...hmm...great way to kick off seeing my favourite band. so at the near end of the set, i find him and we go talk. yup. exactly what i thought. yeah, look at what song i'm listening to. well, that's actually the song that is the soundtrack to the whole incident...because that's what was playing when he broke up with me. i'm not going to say i'm shocked except for the fact that it came REALLY suddenly. but i respect the fact that this is God working in his life, and he needs to be obedient. so there were no tears. plus we've only been really seriously hanging out for a month, and going out for 3 weeks. but seriously, i do NOT want for our friendship to change. i want for him to come over just as often as he has been. i mean, since i started at UD, this has been the best month of my life. i still want him to come up to do the radio show with me. and have our prayer meetings in the courtyard. i really care about him AND his well-being (not smoking, not making out and falling into lust). so just pray that there's no "weirdness" i hate that feeling. and pray that toria will be kind enough to not only drive to church with me, but to take me home as well... or that i find lacey's phone number. have a great day and God bless!
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| 11:14pm 08/11/2002 |
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well, i'm finally updating my journal... yeah...i've been SUPER busy lately. i mean, RIDICULOUSLY busy. here's what's happened in my life since we last spoke:
1)I started seeing a WONDERFUL boy by the name of Joshua Poupard. he's awesome.
2)I threw out all my secular music. yes, all of it. yes, threw it out. no, did not sell it.
3)Joshua asked me out.
4)I started hanging out with the awesome boys of Losing All Hope (at shows anyway), and they're FANTASTIC
5)I had some awesome prayer times with joshua.
6)I saw the last evelynn show ever.
7)I stopped hanging out with all the kinch kids.
8)my roomie and i have been on the fritz.
9)I finished defensive driving.
and finally, on friday i am going to be playing my first show ever! YAY!!!!! so yeah... that's the update..jessie... ;) have an AWESOME day!
God bless!!!
Your sister in Christ,
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lately, the song running through my head has been Tracy Chapman's "Give Me One Reason"...you know.. "Give me one reason to stay here, and i'll turn right back around..." i've been thinking of this song because i want to leave UD. i want to so desparately. this is not the place for me, and it's killing me. since the first day i knew i wasn't going to be able to handle the workload, and i'm really having alot of trouble making it as a non-catholic in a catholic school. all of my friends live in denton, UNT has a film program..so i'm transferring in the spring. i know it'll be better for me there. but just give me one reason to stay here, and i'll turn right back around. well, God needs to give me that reason anyway. God bless you and have a great day!
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| 11:02pm 14/10/2002 |
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wow. um... wow. that's all i can really say about tonight. it was ZANY! but in the end, it lets me know that my friends really do care about me. and that i have real friends. for the first time i really feel as if i don't have just "weekday friends" or "weekend friends". but real true friends. friends who'll even go see infirmity with me even though they're terrified by it. i seriously wouldn't trade mary and stacy and ahn and kate and jake and andrew for the world. even if they did conspire against me to duct tape me to a chair and take over my radio show with foul country music. which they did. but the night continued to get better. as i met this guy ryan who is way cool, excellent Christian, and wants to start a band with me. it's been a great night. and now off to write a thing for philosophy... foulness. God bless!
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God is doing some seriously good works in the lives of my friends, which is, in turn, blessing me greatly! my friend hailey, my best friend from middle school, who in her 8th grade year got involved in some pretty bad stuff, and it only progressed throughout high school, told me yesterday that she is ready to turn over a new leaf. she is going to stop drinking, which means no more sunday morning hangovers, which means she's going to start going to church, which she is REALLY excited about! this makes me so happy! i know God is going to do some amazing things in her life, and i'm so excited that He's using me to help her along the way! i'm going to send her a care package. i'm including a Bible, a "Freedom From Lust" booklet, a couple of CD sermons from my church, a CD of underground Christian bands (harder stuff), and an "it's ok not to drink" patch! pray for hailey, and pray for me that i'm an effective teacher and that i'll allow God to take over and work through me. God bless you guys and have a great day!
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| 06:14pm 06/10/2002 |
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so the other night, adrian broke up with kate. oh yeah, that's right. you have NO IDEA who any of these people are! hahaha! well, kate is my roommate. adrian is the putz she's been dating for the past 3 weeks. PRAISE GOD IT'S OVER! but last night just pissed me off.
I went to go hang out with Jake, Andrew, Mary, and Stacy, and Adrian tagged along. FIRST: the jerk starts bashing his roommate, who i absolutely ADORE and he knows it. THEN! : he starts making extremely rude and uneducated comments about my relationship with Josh, which he has NO RIGHT to be talking about, considering that he has NO idea where i'm coming from. AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF! : he insults my faith. totally and blatantly. i had to leave. i couldn't be around him anymore. i just about clocked him. don't think i wasn't thinking about it.
but my mommy's coming over today. and then i'm gonna go see bright eyes, and Mike Infirmity is going to drive me there! YAY! mike makes everything better. he's seriously one of the best guy friends i have. well, pray that God gives me patience.
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so i'm watching "Josie and the Pussycats". this is a way good movie. not the new "rushmore" or anything. ;) but ya know, it's just good solid girlpunk fun! it's got kittens and puppies too! so ya know! yay!
i went to Bible study tonight. God totally wanted me there too. because miraculously i was provided with a car and it was just so awesome... oh my gosh. thousands of people are gonna be saved. it's gonna be so way awesome. praise God!
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| 06:32pm 29/09/2002 |
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dude, Church was so good today. it's not even funny. but you know, it just gets better every day. i thought about it today how God had promised financial miracles for the month of September in my church, and how i've been reaping the benefits of this. i have been blessed EVERY week with a blessing of 10, 20, even 100-fold from what i offered or brought as tithe. God has been SO faithful about it, and i'm super-thankful for it! and i know i'm gonna continue to see that as long as i'm obedient.
in other news, i went to a dance last nite. that was RIDICULOUSLY fun. i haven't been to a dance in forever too. but this was the tops. and everyone here so doesn't even care that we're all TERRIBLE dancers. in the middle of the dance, i went back to my room and put on real clothes and then came back and rocked out. it was superfun. i had a blast. God bless you guys. oh! and if you wanna give me a ride to tuesday nite Bible study, please email me.
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| 10:59pm 27/09/2002 |
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so i hung out with SKA NICK *of all people* tonite. wow. that was really entertaining. we went to don pablo's and chilled with naaman for a little while. that was really funny. it was just good to see the guy again. especially since he's moving to japan in december. he's a way cool dude. and i really enjoy hanging out with him. but it was great, we just kinda poked fun at eachother, just like old times. i'm gonna miss him alot. but there's always the internet! ha! well, have a good nite. i'm off to a park!
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